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  “Seduce.”

  Heat flared in her face and she ducked her head. Even though sex was a normal part of life, she had never really had anybody to talk about it with. Natasha was too busy being a mom to her. Clifford just seemed too awkward. The matriarch was too focused on getting her ready to take over after her. And her paternal grandmother… well, Serena just didn’t trust her not to make it too crude.

  She let out a shaky breath and nodded. “I do need advice. I don’t know how to be seductive.”

  Robert smiled. “Well, you have the first part down. Being wicked hot. Now, as for the rest of it… We’ll have to set the scene. Do you know how to cook?”

  Chapter Eight

  Tristen kept telling himself that he needed to keep his distance and not get any more mixed up with Serena. Worries tumbled around in his brain. What if this put a strain on the new relationship she had just begun to develop with Robert? It would not only threaten that union, but the connection between the clans. Serena would never forgive herself if her clan ended up hurt because of her actions.

  And he would never forgive himself if he was the cause of her hurt. So he needed to go back, explain that the body did what the body did and assure her that it meant nothing.

  In other words, lie through his teeth and pretend that he wasn’t going crazy thinking about her with someone else.

  Tristen pulled to a stop at the cabin and sucked in a deep breath. The sky was darkening above him, bright stars shining through the dark velvet sky. A beautiful, peaceful scene that didn’t at all fit with the turmoil in his chest.

  A stack of papers sat in the passenger seat. It was everything they had on the Sawyer group. Hopefully, with that, they’d be able to figure out a plan and take action to stop it. And if it allowed him to be here, with Robert and Serena. He knew that Robert was a good fighter and that nobody knew they were out here but at the same time… he needed to see for himself that they were okay.

  But she was also right. He’d had no right to basically kidnap her like this. Even if everybody else agreed, they did so thinking that Serena also agreed. And he and Robert had denied her that choice. As much as he wanted to keep her safe, treating her like that… it was wrong. No two ways about it. So they’d go over these files and, in the morning, they’d return to town.

  Tristen practiced the apology over and over in his mind as he gathered up the papers and took them to the cabin. They had been doing a lot of work; the place was spotless and smelled strongly of roasted meat and spice. His stomach growled and his mouth watered.

  “Ah, there you are.” Robert came in from the other room, pulling his coat on. He took the papers from Tristen’s hand. “Serena’s in there, you need to talk with her.”

  “Rob, I’m sorry for—”

  “Yeah, yeah, I know. You would never act on it, yadda yadda. Go talk with Serena. I’m going to patrol the perimeter. Far enough out that I won’t be able to hear the screaming.” He winked and headed outside.

  Tristen stared after him, jaw hanging loose. Was he suggesting what Tristen thought he was suggesting? No… it couldn’t be. He must have mistaken it for something else... Perhaps Robert meant that Serena would be angry and they’d fight. Yes, that had to be it.

  There was no way that Robert would encourage his brother to be with his mate. He didn’t always understand Robert, but that was certainly not a possibility.

  He went into the next room—and his jaw dropped. The first thing he noticed was the table. It was laid out with delicious-looking food. Fried chicken, mashed potatoes, vibrant green beans. Spice tickled his nose and his stomach gurgled again. Two candles lit the table. The flames were tall and bright.

  Tristen turned to see the rest of the room. His heart stuttered to a stop at the sight of Serena, standing next to a chair. She wore a thin, sexy nightgown. Black lace peeked over the top of the plunging neckline. Her lip was firmly between her teeth, her hair loose and falling down in waves. She stood with one foot behind the other, as though she was preparing to flee. She was so beautiful… but so vulnerable…

  “What’s going on?” His first thought was that this was for Robert, but she wasn’t trying to hide herself. Besides that, the food was freshly cooked and Robert had said he was going for a walk. Unless they had just had a fight? He stepped forward, confusion morphing into concern. “Is everything okay?”

  “Um… yeah.” Serena swallowed hard. “Robert and I had a really good talk. And now it’s time for you and I to talk.”

  His gaze trailed down her body. “Maybe you should put on something. I mean, I don’t want Robert to come back and…”

  Serena moved forward. She took his hand and pulled him into the room. Her cheeks were flushed pink but there was an excited light in her eyes. “I told you, Robert and I had a good talk. He’s not going to come back until dawn. He said he’d sleep in the car.”

  “That’s not necessary…” He smelled the lavender and honey that he always associated with her. It stirred desire in his loins. He swallowed hard.

  “Let’s sit.”

  He moved toward the couch and Serena shook her head.

  “That’s got mice,” she said. “Let’s sit at the table. I can hear your stomach growling.”

  “Serena, I don’t know what’s—”

  “I’m going to tell you.” They sat down and she sucked in a deep breath and flashed him a smile. “All my life, I knew that I was going to be dedicated to the clan. My life wasn’t my life. It belonged—belongs—to the clan. It always has and it always will. I am expected to sacrifice everything, and for the most part, I am more than willing to. But I have come to realize… some of the sacrifices are too great. There are certain things that I just can’t compromise on.”

  He knew where this was going and shook his head. It couldn’t happen. It just couldn’t. “You were mad at me when I left. We should talk about that. How I kidnapped you. It was unacceptable. You can’t be expected to take care of the clan if you aren’t allowed to make your own decisions. I—”

  “You were acting to protect me.”

  Her tone made him shiver. She needed to stop. He didn’t have the strength to refuse her if this got any deeper. He refused to look at her, instead focusing on the vibrant green of the beans. Steam rose from them and rivulets of butter pooled in their nooks and crannies. He opened his mouth again but she spoke before he could.

  “I am not going to take Robert for my mate.”

  Hardly daring to believe what she was saying, he looked up. Hope, that traitorous thing, fluttered in his chest.

  “I thought that I could follow tradition, to let fate dictate my mate. After all, if it’s meant to be it will happen, right? I thought that perhaps the man who won me would be my destined mate. Because why would fate pair me with someone if I wasn’t destined to be with them? Then I realized… Fate is what we make it. We can’t just sit around and wait for what is bound to happen. Fate is made by each of our choices every day. If I wanted to be with my true mate, then I would have to close my eyes and make a leap of faith.”

  Her warm chocolate eyes drew him in until their faces were inches from each other.

  “I thought I’d be able to move on. But I know what I want. And the thought of not being able to be with you? It makes me feel sick to my stomach. Like there’s no point in having a heart, because it would just be ripped out every day I woke up without you next to me.”

  He wanted to kiss her. In that moment, he wanted it more than anything else. Except for her happiness. That, he wanted more. And try as he might, he just wasn’t convinced that this would make her happy.

  When she leaned to close the distance between them, he pulled back. He shook his head. “Serena, this is more than about duties. You have never had a boyfriend. I am twice your age. If we were together, it would deny you so much learning and experience. That’s something you should find out with someone as you learn and grow together. Not for someone my age to steal from you.”

  Serena sat back. She si
ghed.

  “I’m sorry. But we can’t be together.”

  “Because I don’t have real-world experiences?”

  Tristen nodded. He looked up at her. “I really am sorry.”

  “So you’re saying that if I had experience with men… if I was like my uncle and had dozens or more sexual partners, you’d be with me?”

  Just the thought made his bear growl. But this wasn’t about him it was about her. He didn’t want to stunt her growth as she became her own person. Still, he couldn’t honestly answer the question. Because he’d still say that they weren’t meant for each other, and then it wasn’t about experience at all…

  “That’s what I thought.” Serena narrowed her eyes at him. “Listen to me, Tristen Cade. These feelings have developed. They’re strong and they’re real. Now I didn’t do anything to try to encourage you to like me, and I know you didn’t encourage me to like you that way. But it happened. When I think of being with anybody else, I feel sick. I don’t want to have experienced sex just for the sake of experiencing it. I know what I want, and I want you.’

  “Robert is your mate.”

  “No. He’s not.” She moved closer again and put her hands on his chest. Her touch was light and hesitant. He leaned into her anyway, unable to stop himself. “If you really don’t want to be my mate, then that’s okay. I will go back to town and I will put you from my mind. Somehow. All you have to say is that you don’t want to be my mate. Not that we can’t be together. Not that it’s not appropriate or that people won’t understand or anything else.”

  “I… I want you.” The words came unbidden. “God, Serena! How could you ever think that I don’t want you? But it’s not appropriate. I saw you grow up, I knew you as a little girl—”

  “I’m not a little girl. You didn’t want me then, did you?”

  “Of course not,” he responded honestly. “Then you were just some annoying kid. But the fact is—”

  “The fact is that I’m an adult and you’re an adult. And that’s all that matters.” Serena leaned in again. This time he didn’t make himself deny what he wanted. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her in close to his chest. It was as though a dam had broken. Every repressed emotion came flooding in and he kissed her again and again, his touch fevered. Almost as fevered as hers as she dug her fingers into his hair and straddled his lap.

  “I want you,” he panted between kisses. “More than you can know.”

  “I want you, too.” Serena grinned at him. “See? What more do we need than that?”

  Chapter Nine

  Her heart was so full that she thought it might burst. Serena wrapped herself in his arms, forgetting about the table laid with food and the couch full of mice. A grin blossomed across her face as her bear cuddled into her chest, content with being so close to Tristen at last. All the confusion of the past few days just melted away. She ran her fingers through his hair as he clutched her tighter.

  “It’s grown,” she murmured. “When you first came you had that severe look. It was so short you might as well have been bald.”

  Tristen shrugged as he moved to pick her up off her chair onto his lap. It was a testament to how sturdily the chairs had been constructed that there was no creaks or groans from their combined weight. Serena giggled as he started to kiss her collarbone. It was as though the dam had broken; he’d held himself back so long that he couldn’t stand not having himself all over her. She understood the feeling.

  “Serena,” he sighed into her skin. “So beautiful. You’re so beautiful and so, so strong.”

  Serena sighed as a pleasant shiver ran down her spine. Tristen focused in on her neck and she gasped slightly. Something tightened inside and she released a surprised whimper. She had never felt anything so powerful before.

  Tristen pulled back and smoothed her hair from her face. A brilliant smile lit his face as he kissed her again. “Serena… what do you want?”

  She didn’t reply, not quite certain what he was asking.

  “You and me… right now. I want to know what you want. I don’t want to go too far and make you uncomfortable. So… what do you want?”

  Serena leaned into him. A smile crossed her lips as she nuzzled into his neck, loving the response that she gave. “Everything.”

  Tristen’s hands gently caressed her back, moving to her ass and thighs and then back up. He tilted her head, letting her have better access to his throat. Those big, strong hands moved under the thin nightie she wore, lifting it off her. She raised her arms and he tossed it aside, then moved his hand between her legs. His palm pressed against her through her underwear and she gasped, rocking her hips to get increased contact. Tristen kept an arm around her waist, letting her move freely but stopping her from falling off his lap.

  “What do you like?” he asked huskily.

  “Um… what do you mean?” She panted as he started probing at her underwear with his strong fingers.

  Tristen nipped at her shoulder. “What do you fantasize about?”

  Heat flooded Serena’s face, but it was nothing to the heat building in her core. She had a feeling that she could say the weirdest kink ever and he would just roll with it. Just like he could say anything and she’d be completely fine with whatever he wanted to do. Her heart swelled a little tighter as she realized that rather than taking the lead, he was letting her explore what she desired. He knew how to make her feel good and what he liked—but he wanted to give her the control.

  The realization was paired with her kissing him passionately. Her tongue thrust into his mouth. Her hands clumsily ran down the front of his shirt, undoing the buttons there. With a grin she moved her mouth to his pecs, nipping at one of his nipples. Tristen grunted and lifted his hips slightly. She glanced up at him as she moved downward, seeing how his eyes were half-closed, a smile on his face.

  “You didn’t answer me,” he rumbled low in his throat.

  Serena gulped. She chewed her lip even as she smiled. “You mean the position I fantasize most about?”

  Tristen nodded. “That works.”

  “Well, then I guess it would be cowgirl style…”

  “A good choice.” He lifted her back up and put her on the chair again. His hands ran down her form and deftly removed her underwear. She reached to unhook her bra but he caught her wrists. “You’re going to want to keep that on.”

  “Okay.”

  He removed his pants, letting her catch a full look at him. The thought of him inside of her made her swell and she parted her legs as she felt too much pressure there already. Tristen knelt between her legs, pressing his face into her. Serena’s fingers dug into his scalp as his tongue worked wickedly. Everything was so tight, she wasn’t sure she would be able to stand it.

  She was crying out with pleasure by the time he pulled back. He squeezed himself, and she realized he had been preparing himself at the same time as her. Her body felt like it was vibrating as she caught his mouth with hers again. He kissed her back hard and deep, then pulled back again. He laid back, using their clothing to pillow his head, and pulled her over him.

  Serena kissed down his body as she straddled him. She tried to push down on him, but he didn’t stay in place; Tristen chuckled, the sound rumbling, and reached to help guide himself. One of his hands gripped her hip, easing her down.

  “Gentle,” he murmured. “We have to go slowly, since it’s your first time.”

  Serena nodded as she lowered herself. His entry was tight and hot, taking her breath away. Pleasure rippled through her and her head fell back, a sigh falling from her lips. At one point there was an uncomfortable sensation that wasn’t quite pain, but she paused and allowed herself to adjust. Tristen flicked his thumb over her clit and a shudder ran down her spine. She was able to take him all in then.

  Sensations she hadn’t known were possible filled her as she started to move. It was so powerful that it took all her concentration to grind herself against him. The trembling that had filled her returned with full force.
She felt so tight inside that she couldn’t breathe. Soon she was crying out. His hands were on her hips and she braced herself on his arms.

  “I c-can’t,” she stuttered out, and then everything exploded. Pleasure burst through her like fire. It raged through her blood, leaving her gasping and helpless in its wake.

  She collapsed on him, gasping and whimpering with the intensity of what was going on inside of her. For a long moment, all she could do was lay there and gasp. When she gathered her strength back, she kissed his chest and neck before moving her way back to his mouth. He held her so close she could hardly breathe.

  When everything had calmed down and her body was no longer vibrating, Serena smiled shyly at him. “Wow.”

  “Yeah.”

  “So that’s what it’s like, huh?” Serena slowly eased herself off of him. There was a slight sting and she winced. “Is it always like that?”

  Tristen shook his head. “No.”

  She chewed on her lip. “Was I… was I good?”

  “You were great.” He brushed her hair back from her neck and laughed. “Trust me. You’ve got some natural raw talent there.”

  She stretched and then lay on the floor beside him. She pillowed her head on his shoulder and sighed. Her bear curled up, snoozing, and her own eyes started to drift shut. “I’ve never felt my bear this content before.”

  Tristen made a noise of agreement in his throat. “Me, neither. Normally the damn thing is prowling around looking for the next thing to do. But now… it’s like…”

  “Like I’m finally home.”

  “Exactly.”

  Serena propped herself up on one elbow. He was so handsome. With his sparkling eyes and that deep look of adoration. It made her tingle from head to toe. One of her hands rested flat on his chest, while her gaze moved across his beautiful face. His full lips, his beautiful eyes, his strong cheekbones.

  “So… does this mean that we’re mates? I mean, both of us have just agreed that our bears have never been more content, so…”

  “It must. Not that it’s that much of a surprise.” Tristen cupped her face with his hands. “I’ve been denying it for quite a while. My bear was drawn to you ever since the day you invited me into your greenhouse and showed me around. I looked at you and you were so strong, so determined, so knowledgeable. You were a woman. I thought that there must have been something wrong with me, to suddenly see something I’d never seen before.”